Waking up on Taylor and Natalie's front porch I look around, frowning as I realize I had dreamed Natalie coming back to me. I had dreamed the huge time skip in months. Natalie had left me today and she wasn't coming back. Taylor had left too because of me. I was a fucking life ruiner.
Standing from the porch I go to my truck and get in. I'm not sure where to go but I know I need to go somewhere. I don't want to go to my apartment. I'm not sure I can handle being alone right now. Not when I feel like I am at my weakest point right now.
So instead of driving towards my apartment after I start my truck and pull out, I drive towards Bethany's house. It may not be the best move, I mean I know Austin was supposed to be moving out here but I just need Bethany. She is the one person who gets me when I am at my low points, maybe because she is as crazy as I am. That has to be the reason.
I arrived at Bethany's house and cut my truck off, getting out. I am glad her car is here but I have a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach at the over car in her drive way now too. I am sure it's probably Austin's car and that hurts me and just makes me confused. I have no right to care who she hangs out with. I may have feelings for her but I don't love her.
Going onto her front porch I raise my hand and knock three times before looking down. When I hear the door open I look up expecting it to be Bethany but instead I come face to face with a girl I haven't seen before which causes me to crinkle my forehead in confusion. "I..is Bethany here?" I ask, blushing slightly when I stutter.
The unknown girl gives me a smirk before shaking her head, "She and Austin went to some movie," she shrugs moving aside so I can come in. "They should be back soon though if you want to wait here."
I nod politely and step inside the house, looking around, "So are you a friend of Bethany's from college?" I ask deciding to make small talk with the girl.
She laughs and walks past me, heading into the living room. "I'm her sister Leigh. I'm visiting her for a month. Contemplating going to the same college she did so I wanted to see what Tulsa was like before deciding if I like it enough to make a move down here."
Hearing that she is Bethany's sister I shake my head. I don't really see the resemblance but in a way maybe I do if I look just right. "Bethany never mentioned having a sister," I tell Leigh before sitting down beside her on the couch.
"I'm not surprised," Leigh mutters a hint of sadness in her voice. "Bethany never mentions me really."
At her words I frown hoping I haven't hit a sore spot. I really do not need Bethany's sister crying on me when Bethany and Austin come home. That is some explaining I don't really wanna do on an already shitty day for me.
Leigh just frowns before standing from the couch, "I'll be back," she mumbles incoherently and I am pretty sure I have just made her cry. Way to go Zac fucking Hanson. Make a girl cry when your day is already shitty. Make Bethany's sister of all people cry.
Sitting back against the couch I try to shake the fact that I have made Leigh cry but before I can I hear the front door open and foot steps coming this way. Looking up I frown seeing Bethany stop in her tracks, a guy with brown hair casually having his arm around her shoulder.
"Z..Zac," Bethany squeaks her eyes going wide. "What are you doing here?" she asks almost as if she doesn't want me here. That my being here was a bad thing.
I look down not wanting to see Austin with Bethany, "Natalie left me," I answer her feeling tears in my eyes. "Natalie left me and Taylor left as well. He knew about us and he was upset. I just, I guess I needed a friend so I came to you," I finish mustering a fake smile as I look back at her. I'm glad to see that Austin has moved his arm off her shoulder.
Bethany looks down now, "Well I'd let you stay for awhile but I'm kind of busy tonight," she sighs softly before looking up again and over at Austin who exits the living room. "Austin and I were planning on ordering some Chinese food and just laying around in bed."
Frowning again I run a hand through my hair, "So you won't help me or at least talk to me?" I ask her my words coming out with a sad tinge to them. I am sad, sad that she is seemingly refusing to help me when I know if it wasn't for that asshole named Austin she would. She has never turned me down before.
"No when I know helping you involves sex," Bethany says her voice raising slightly. I can tell from that her patience with me is wearing thin. "You don't love me Zachary and I am making things with Austin work again. I can't be your fucking sex toy when your life goes down the drain, not anymore."
I stand from the couch and glare at her, "Fine be a bitch," I hiss out as I walk over to her. "But at least be one knowing I probably kiss you better than he ever can," I smirk before pulling Bethany into a passionate kiss. I don't even care that Austin could catch us. I kind of want him too. I want him to see me kissing Bethany.
I'm surprised when Bethany responds briefly before pushing me away. "Asshole," she mutters softly but she just stands there with a smirk on her face. It's the smirk that gives away that she isn't mad at me. "I hate you for being right," she whispers low enough so only I can hear her.
"It's a skill I have mastered," I nod my head, pushing past her so I can go outside to my truck. I am kind of upset when Bethany doesn't follow after me but I guess even though she has admitted I kiss her better than that loser she still wants to try and make things right with him. She wants to push me aside when I could use her or anyone to make me stop feeling so low, like my life is out of my hands.
Opening my truck door I get in and I am about to start the truck when I hear the passenger side door open. Turning my head I expect to see Bethany but I am shocked to see Leigh instead. Giving her a confused look I just wait for her to explain herself, I mean I thought she was still crying in God knows where.
Leigh smirks at me, her eyes still looking a bit red and puffy from where I had made her cry, "My sister is stupid for not coming after you," she tells me as she runs a hand through her brunette hair. It's styled different than Bethany's and even Natalie's. "I saw the way you kissed her. I'd kill for someone to kiss me like that."
I open my mouth to say something but before I can I feel Leigh pulling me closer until she is kissing me much like I had kissed Bethany. I should pull her away, Bethany will have my head on a silver platter for kissing her sister or well letting her sister kiss me but damn it Bethany turned me down so screw her. I am going to let Leigh kiss me. Hell I will even enjoy this kiss.
Kissing Leigh back I let my hands come to rest on her cheeks. Leigh is no Natalie nor Bethany but human contact is what I need right now obviously. I also feel I have come to a conclusion right now. I am a co-dependent. I need someone to make me happy. It may not be the person I love anyone will do and right now that person is Bethany's sister.
When I pull away from the kiss I have to catch my breath. "How about we go some place more private?" I offer her hoping she agrees. I know if I want to stay alive I will not kiss Leigh anymore in Bethany's drive way and I sure as hell won't be fucking her here either.
Leigh nods her head not answering me with actual words. Apparently I may have kissed her speechless..or I'm just being too damn cocky. ________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ Waking a few hours later I look at Leigh who is sleeping beside me. I have taken her to the apartment I had leased. It may have been unfurnished still but we didn't need any furniture to fuck. Now we had done that against every available wall and floor space we could have found in the living room.
Hearing my phone beep from my jean pocket I groan not wanting to move but I know if I don't Leigh will wake up and while I like fucking her I'm nut sure I enjoy talking to her, not like I do her sister.
Finding my pants I take my phone out and hit to see why it beeped. Seeing I have a voicemail I roll my eyes but hit to listen to it my heartbeat picking up when I hear Bethany's voice come through. Does she know I am with her sister?
"I..listen there was another reason I turned you down you know," Bethany laughs and I'm sure I can see her face crinkle like it does from time to time. "I..I haven't told Austin yet, hell I don't know how to tell Austin yet though I know soon it's going to be hard to hide. I wanted to hide it from you too and I was afraid I may have told you had you been here longer earlier. I'm not sure why I am about to tell you this now I mean it's not going to change things but maybe it will or maybe I am just crazy though you already knew that. I'm pregnant..two months so there is no way it can be Taylor's baby. Congratulations," she says warily before I hear the phone go click.
Dropping the phone to the floor I just sit there speechless. Bethany is having my baby. This was not supposed to happen.