I groan to myself as I arrive at the hotel in New York. Two days have passed since the threesome and the band has just arrived in New York for show's celebrating our twenty-first year as a band and also the release of our album Anthem.
Looking behind me as I walk off the elevator, I watch Natalie shuffling her kids off to the room she has, Kate following behind her. Kate had somehow managed to convince Taylor to let her come along and I wish she hadn't. Her being her just adds more stress to me.
"You okay," a voice asks breaking my thoughts and I look over seeing Taylor staring at me.
"I'm fine," I nod and follow him to our room. Kate tagging along has forced Natalie into agreeing to share a room with her and all of the kids. I say forced because I heard their conversation on the phone yesterday. Kate had practically begged Natalie to be roommates with her and together they could conquer the children.
Taylor opens the door to our room and I sigh as we both walk in, dropping my bags at the foot of the biggest bed and then falling down on it.
"Do we really have to do a show tomorrow?" I ask him as I raise an eyebrow. "Can't I just stay in here and sleep all day."
Taylor laughs and I watch him drop his bag by the smaller bed and lay down, "I wish we could but sadly I don't think we can," he says as he shakes his head.
I pout playfully and look at him, noticing that now he is zoning out. "You okay?" I question when he finally blinks a few times and I know he has came back to reality.
He nods his head, "Just thinking of Natalie," he sighs and I can tell from the sigh there is more he wants to say but isn't saying.
"What about Natalie?" I ask wondering if he will tell me more. I want to know what he is thinking about Natalie.
Taylor sits up and runs a hand through his hair, "I think she is in love with Isaac or whoever the hell she is fucking," he says harshly and that makes me cringe. "She took off her wedding band for the first time since we have been married. She claimed she lost it but I found it in her jewelry box."
I look away from him. So he too had noticed her lack of a wedding band. "You really think just because her ring isn't on, she doesn't love you?" I frown as I chew on my lip. If only I could tell him she does love him. That I know this because I confessed to loving her and got my heart broken when she said she would always love him.
Taylor nods as he looks at me, "Yeah, I do really think that," he answers and I can tell from the tone of his voice he is being honest with me. He believes that Natalie is in love with me, though he has no clue it's me he is talking about.
I look away from him and try to hide the smile that wants to form on my lips. A part of me wants him to be right. I want Natalie to be in love with me. I want her to want me and not Taylor. "I hope you are wrong," I lie as I look up at him and force myself to smile.
"I hope I am too," Taylor says as he stands from the bed. "I'm going to get a shower and just try to sleep," he informs me as he gets his clothes and heads into the bathroom.
Taking my phone out of my pocket I send Natalie a text, asking if she can meet me in the lobby in a few minutes. I know Kate will hate to have the kids but damn it after my talk with Taylor I need to know if he is right about why her wedding band is gone.
Getting a response back, I smile when Natalie agrees to meet me. Turning my phone off, I slip it back in my pocket and stand from the bed. I leave the room without even writing a note to Taylor. I don't see the use in it, I figure I probably won't be gone long. Natalie may have agreed to meet me but she wouldn't agree to what I want to do after we talk. I want to get a room and make love to her.
I know I had said we should call things off after the threesome but I really can't stop seeing her. I just fucking love her too much.
When I make it down to the lobby, I look around for Natalie but don't spot her yet so I go and sit down on a chair.
"Hey," Natalie says and I jump some, turning to see her standing beside the chair I am sitting in.
I smile and stand up, "Want to go get coffee or something?" I ask her as I raise an eyebrow. "I want to talk to you but not here."
Natalie smiles and nods, "Sure," she says as she agrees to go out to get coffee with me.
Taking her hand in mine, I blush some and walk out of the hotel. I know fans can possibly spot us holding hands if there are any close by but I don't care. I just want to be as close as possible to Natalie right now. I want to show my affection towards her and a part of me is sick of hiding it even if it hurts Taylor.
That thought makes me sad. I don't want to hurt Taylor but can I keep on denying forever that I want to take his wife from him? Ever since I realized I love her I know I have been screwed because eventually I am going to want more than she can offer and it seems that is already starting now.
When we make it to a Starbucks that's just down the street from the hotel, Natalie lets go of my hand and we both go to the counter, "I'll pay," I tell her as I pull her into me by her waist and leave a tiny kiss on her forehead as we stand in line. "Just tell me what you want," I mutter as I inhale the scent of her hair. It smells like peaches and I almost wonder if she bought a shampoo to match her bubble bath scent.
Natalie smiles as I kiss her forehead and I may be shocked. I would have figured she would push me away and tell me not to be so affectionate with her in public, but maybe if Taylor is right on her loving me, then maybe she too is tired of not showing it when we are out together. "I'll just take a tea," she says as she moves her head some and kisses me on the cheek.
I smile more and keep Natalie close to me. Once the person in front of us gets done with their order I move to the front Natalie not once leaving my side until I give our order. We both get teas. After I order Natalie finally moves away from me and goes to find us a booth. I hope she picks one as far away from everyone else in here. I kind of want to keep showing her affection.
When the order was ready I took both of our drinks and paid for them before turning and looking around for Natalie. I smile when I spot her in a corner away from everyone else and I walk over to her, sitting down beside her instead of on the opposite side.
"I'm glad you choose to sit here," I tell her as I lean in and kiss her cheek softly as I put her tea in front of her. "I kind of want to keep showing you affection," I whisper in her ear as my teeth gently nip at her earlobe which makes her blush.
Natalie pulls away from me and shakes her head, "You want to get us in trouble?" she asks as she takes a sip of her drink. "I mean I don't mind you being affectionate but so publicly? Anyway I thought you said after the threesome this thing between us was over with."
I chew on my lip, "I did say that," I nod. "But I can't seem to ever stay away from you," I say as I take a sip from my own drink now. "And we won't get caught," I smirk. "We have luck on our side."
"Yeah, luck on our side in as big as city as this is, not to mention it's crawling with fans right now more than likely," Natalie laughs as she looks away from me. "Why did you want to meet up for anyway?"
Taking another sip from my drink, I sigh as I find the best way to answer her. "Taylor found where you are hiding your wedding band," I start as I watch her look back at me, an unknown emotion showing in her eyes. "He is convinced that because you have your wedding band off that you are in love with the man you are cheating with."
"And you want to know if he is right?" Natalie asks as if she has read my mind. "I already told you when you confessed to loving me that I love Taylor and I always will," she sighs as she shakes her head and takes a much longer drink from her tea. "Taylor was my first love, my first everything."
At her words I frown, hoping that maybe she'd confirm what Taylor suspected. "I took my ring off because I feel dirty every time I wear it with you. It feels worse wearing it with you then it did with Muff or Carrick."
I bit my lip to keep my composure, "And you keep it off because? I think you are just lying to yourself Natalie. I think you do love me and you are just scared to admit it. You are scared that if you admit it you will want to be with me and hurt Taylor. I'm scared of hurting him too but eventually I'm going to want more from you Natalie. I just need to know you will be able to give me more in return."
Natalie sighs after I finish talking and instead of saying anything she pulls me into a kiss, a very passionate kiss. I really hope this is her way of telling me she will give me more in return whenever I decide I want more from her.
Kissing her back, I let my hand go to her cheek and I moan on her lips softly, my tongue quickly darting into her mouth and tangling with her tongue. Now this is really testing our luck, more so then what I was doing.
Finally Natalie pulls away from the kiss. Before she can say anything though Kate slides in the booth as well.
"Well well," Kate smirks as she looks at us. "Look at who Natalie really is cheating with. I bet Taylor will love to know this," she laughs as she shows us her phone which had been in her hand. On her phone is a picture of Natalie and I kissing.
I look at Kate and just sit there in silence not sure what to say. "Nat said you were watching the kids."
Kate laughs as she moves her phone away from our view, "I was but then they all decided they wanted something to snack on, preferably from a Starbucks," she shrugs. "Imagine my surprise when I walk in and see you two making out like teenagers," she says as she eyes Natalie. "So how long have you been fucking my husband?"
Natalie glares at Kate, "A lot less longer than you were fucking mine," she answers as she shakes her head.
"Oh don't be such a bitch Natalie," Kate smiles though it is clearly fake. "I don't plan on actually telling Taylor. Not unless Zachary here agrees to move back home when we get back to Tulsa and also cuts off all contact with you minus any family gatherings. I mean it's only best since he is the father of this baby as well and I don't think he needs to make three kids suffer without a dad."
Hearing her say I am the father of the baby she is pregnant with as well, I swallow hard. I love my other two kids and yeah I had come to love this one too but I was just really hoping that maybe it hadn't been mine.
Looking down at the table I shake my head, "I..I will move back home," I agree as I look up feeling Natalie glaring at me though Kate is genuinely smiling. I'm pretty sure she is the only happy person at this table.